The Funk Zone

It might be my favorite little spot in Santa Barbara but sadly this title just describes the little spot in my head lately - the one I’m desperately trying to break out of on a constant basis.

Life isn’t what you see on instagram. After you’re done watching five seconds of dancing laughing eating shopping whatevering - you’re missing the other 23 plus hours of life… sometimes its fun, sometimes its boring, sometimes its painful, terrifying, and yes - sometimes it’s even hilarious. That’s what life is. If we all were pumping hits of dopamine through our bloodstreams - no one would be on the internet - no one would be doom scrolling social media - they’d be too busy enjoying life.

Social media is our dopamine shot into us for seconds at a time - and if you follow me - sometimes so is a labubu.

I try to be really real on my platform. I talk about my past and how it relates to my present. I talk about my struggles both mentally and financially - the former being not that big of a deal - the latter being a constant source of depression, anxiety and what the fuck am I doing wrong. My own favorite quote of mine is “People say money can’t buy happiness but I know exactly what stores sell it.” Meaning - I’ve worked so hard on myself that the only guarantees I’m missing are perfect health for life and financial freedom. Two things no one can control. And yet letting go is so hard.

The thought that runs through my head is - the only people not freaking out are healthy with money. And that simply isn’t true. The only people not freaking out about life right now are the ones who can stay present. The ones who can find pockets of joy. The ones who can ride out a shitstorm and find a rainbow. The ones who can leave the Funk Zone as quickly as they enter it. I’m getting better at that.

I guess what I’m trying to say is - if we stay in the mud we’ll never push through to our lotus flower potential - to stick our faces in the sun and show up in the world as our beautiful colorful selves.

It’s not easy to always find joy. But it’s so simple to search for it.